I don't understand you, Susanne Rolfe!!!

Humm...

Okay, hari ini kesekian kalinya Direktur gwe menganggap bahwa gwe ngga pernah ada.

I don't know what's wrong with her.

She never asked for my help.

I am more Senior than Harry and Ratu, but she never thinks that I exist!

What exactly her problem with me???

Why is she treating me like this???

What did I do wrong???

Should I just find another job and stop being neglected like this or what...???

What should I do???

I really don't understand her!!!

Someday, it has a happy ending

Oo My God! It's at the beginning of 2011 and I'm SINGLE, again! Ahahahahaahahahahahahaa. But thats okay ^^ I feel relief. Se-LEGA LEGA-nya! :D

Well, kisah setahun lebih dengan Heru berakhir sudah. Sedih dan kecewa masih berasa, secara baru 2 mingguan yang benar-benar pisah dari dia ^^ tapi gwe ngga pernah menyesal, karena gwe udah perang dan mengusahakan yang terbaik buat hubungan kita. Apapun yang sudah terjadi, gwe simpan buat kenangan gwe dan pembelajaran (lagi) buat gwe :) --I don't hate Heru, I'm just disappointed-- "well, it's been a great adventure with you ay".

Ehm ehm ehm,,,
I know it's too soon, but I do need a rebound guy ^^
Hahahahahahahahahaahahahaha! You know, to heal is to find a new guy :D (what a theory huh?) --Ada siyhhh beberapa nama yang lumayan intense, tapi ngga tahu kenapa, kalau mereka udah mulai makin deket jadi gwe yg menjauh hihihihihi, mungkin emang gwe juga yang belum siap deket lagi sama orang lain, dan di sisi lain.. gwe juga lagi heboh-hebohnya jalan sama temen-temen gwe lagi--AMPE BANGKRUT ANE! Wahahahahahahahahaaha!
Well, it's close to valentine's day and I feel love is all around me ^^

Never regret anything that ever happened in life, because life without any obstacles is just boring.

Well, some say...

Jangan pernah biarkan orang lain membuat kita berhenti bermimpi.

Karena hanya kita yang mampu memutuskan apakah mimpi kita menjadi kenyataan atau tidak.

Lepaskan semua kekhawatiranmu, karena hal tersebut hanya membuat kita berhenti untuk percaya bahwa kita mampu.

Hummm...ada apa yah?
Gwe terdengar sangat antusias dan semangat dari kalimat-kalimat di atas hihihihi...
Well, kalimat-kalimat itu gwe baca dari renungan tadi pagi dan gwe post disini, karena mampu membangkitkan sisi positif dari diri gwe yang sedikit mulai tenggelam. Rasa khawatir akan apapun mulai bermunculan dan apapun yang sedang gwe kerjakan menjadi terganggu, dan gwe benci itu!

Itulah hebatnya kata-kata / kalimat positif yah???
Bisa memberikan motivasi ke orang lain, bahkan yang tidak kita kenal sekalipun.

Well, some say... Perkataan adalah doa :)

Heru Gunawan / Bongkeng Sihebat / ay'...

Yes, he defeats the Pakistani guy!
He won and we still together, even getting closer one to another ^^
And am so glad, bcos he's the one who I spent my Christmas eve and New Year's eve with... ^^

I know, he is not the most perfect guy I've ever dreamed or wanted but he surely is the one who always be there for me, no matter what!
That kind of presence and that kind of carrying, are things which I want for relationship, and he shows it just right ^^
He makes me feel matter and loved...and he loves me with the most funny way I've ever felt ^^ ...he is the most strange funny smart loving carrying person I've ever met and I love him, with all the best in me ^^

Life

Life is beautiful...

Full of surprises...

Full of classified fulfilling files that scream to be opened and tell...

I like how Lord planned my life...

I like how He loves me and gives me so many chances to feel what life is, how life is and live it.

the break up

I know and you know that us is just wrong...
What ever we feel to each other is wrong...
Whether it's Love or Comfort or both...
We should blame our selves for feeling it...

You shouldn't say that you like me at the first place, cause everything's fine with your family...
And I wasn't suppose to like you back, cause I know exactly who you are...

This hope with tears has no more hope! There's only tears left and we got no one to blame but our selves...

We shall be friends, it's easier and cooler for us and let those feelings go away through time that will pass us by...

Lets not go deeper, lets stay on the surface and we can still enjoy the beer on our hands and still be a great friends ^^

For the last time,

I Love you, bie.

gRavity

Gravity is working against me

And gravity wants to bring me down

Oh, I'll never know what makes this man

With all the love that his heart can stand

Dream of ways to throw it all away

Gravity wants to bring me down

Oh, twice as much ain't twice as good

Can't sustain like one half could

It's wanting more that's gonna send me to my knees

Gravity, stay the hell away from me

Gravity has taken better men than me

How can that be?

Just keep me where the light is...

I FeeL so "PULP", today...!

She came from Greece she had a thirst for knowledge,
she studied sculpture at Saint Martin's College,
that's where I,
caught her eye.
She told me that her Dad was loaded,
I said "In that case I'll have a rum and coca-cola."
She said "Fine."
and in thirty seconds time she said,

"I want to live like common people,
I want to do whatever common people do,
I want to sleep with common people,
I want to sleep with common people,
like you."

Well what else could I do -
I said "I'll see what I can do."
I took her to a supermarket,
I don't know why but I had to start it somewhere,
so it started there.
I said pretend you've got no money,
she just laughed and said,
"Oh you're so funny."
I said "yeah?
Well I can't see anyone else smiling in here.
Are you sure you want to live like common people,
you want to see whatever common people see,
you want to sleep with common people,
you want to sleep with common people,
like me."
But she didn't understand,
she just smiled and held my hand.
Rent a flat above a shop,
cut your hair and get a job.
Smoke some fags and play some pool,
pretend you never went to school.
But still you'll never get it right,
cos when you're laid in bed at night,
watching roaches climb the wall,
if you call your Dad he could stop it all.

You'll never live like common people,
you'll never do what common people do,
you'll never fail like common people,
you'll never watch your life slide out of view,
and dance and drink and screw,
because there's nothing else to do.

Sing along with the common people,
sing along and it might just get you through,
laugh along with the common people,
laugh along even though they're laughing at you,
and the stupid things that you do.
Because you think that poor is cool.

I want to live with common people,
I want to live with common people etc...

Orang laiN

Sekarang jam 6:28pm..
Gwe masih di kantor, tepatnya di viewing room sambil nungguin respondent dateng dan grup dimulai, gwe dengerin Donavon ngeband di media player gwe.
Gwe lembur!

I am really in a good mood today.
Had a meeting with Nestle and Lowe team in Wisma Nestle this morning and I think the home immersion will be a great learning for me, just wondering if I can go to Bali on March or not because of this project. I really hope I can take days off later.
Well, there are some responsibilities when we grow up right?
I'm glad that I have responsibilities, sementara banyak bgt orang-orang di luar sana yang pengen sibuk kerja, so I can't complain but grateful hohohohoho.

Tapi belakangan gwe ngerasa kesepian.
Semua orang punya "orang" lain di sampingnya.
Ada yg mereka sms atau godain.
Hona, Kitty, Vino...
Semua orang yang belakangan ini paling deket sama gwe, semuanya punya "orang lain".
Gwe bener-bener berharap gwe ngga terlalu lama "sendiri".
I keep asking myself, "what the hell is wrong with me???"

where's my imperfect guy?

My Business English 3 Lecture says :
"guys would be crazy over you... your beauty comes from the inside!!! i wonder why u're single??? hummm ... i think you're looking for a perfect person... here, let me tell you something... Love is not about finding a perfect person, it's about finding the imperfect person and love him perfectly..."

Sometimes I feel like "it's easy when you are not in my shoes..."
but, I respect his opinion... I might been looking for a perfect person in the past 1 year... I might also been looking for a perfect relationship...
but, there are no PERFECT THINGS in this world right?

Okay, thanks Sir.
I do understand...
I think I should have been more confidence and try not to be stiff and perfect on my love life...!

I'll try my best ;)

-xoxo-

Happy New Year...!!!

Can't believe... It's 2009 now...

Still single...

Strong and healthy...

Have a decent job...

Loved by family and friends...

Lived in a tropic and polluted country...

Still being so grateful about all of it!!!


Thank you, Lord... 2008 was marvelous! This year gonna be so much better!


-xoxo-

Dear San Fransisco . . .

USA, California, San Francisco cityscape with Oakland Bay Bridge at dusk

san francisco skyline seen from end of pier/moonrise


USA, California, San Francisco, Golden Gate Bridge


Cable cars on Hyde Street


San Francisco vintage trolly car along the Embarcadero

San Francisco is part of the San Francisco Bay Area, which is home to more than 7 million people. The city is located at the tip of the San Francisco Peninsula, with the Pacific Ocean to the west, San Francisco Bay to the east, and the Golden Gate to the north.San Francisco is a popular international tourist destination famous for its landmarks, including the Golden Gate Bridge, Alcatraz Island, the cable cars, Coit Tower, and Chinatown, its steep rolling hills, and its eclectic mix of Victorian and modern architecture. The city is also known for its diverse, cosmopolitan population, including large and long-established Asian American and LGBT communities.

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I have 2 dream cities...
>> London, and
>> San Fransisco

Dari setahun yang lalu gwe pengen banget tinggal di salah 1 negara di atas, tapi sepertinya lebih memungkinkan di San Fransisco.
Kerja disana, ketemu jodoh disana dan menetap disana (disana = San Fransisco) hehehehehe kalo bisa jadi warga negara sana hohohohohoho.

Kenapa SF? Liat degh gambaran kotanya di atas. Beda banget sama Jakarta atau New York kan? The city is so relax, peaceful and HAVE NO PROBLEM WITH TRAFFIC!!!
I hope I can go there in 2 years. You know, after being an expert at what I do, gaining more and more experience at my work and find a company that is coming from the city that I love so I might get the chance to work in their country ;)
But the first thing I need to do is to do many excellencies in my current company and then move from research company to some FMCG or Pharmaceutical company. Right?

You think 2 years enough to do all that in Jakarta and move to SF?
Hahahahahahahahahahha... Well, I don't know...

I'll just do my best ;)

-xoxo-

I'm gLad

Humm,..
Aku punya teman (don't sing it!!!) hehehehehe...
Anyway, temen gwe ini pacarnya bule (temen gwe = cewe...pacar bule = cowo).
Hubungan mereka terbilang serius. Semalem mereka berantem dan mereka cukup sering berantem yg menghasilkan keputusan untuk putus. Tapi tadi malam mereka berantem di tempat umum and this bule guy suddenly punched my friend's arm and it was hurting her! This bule guy never punched her before, but last night... I don't know what happened! I mean, this bule guy loves my friend so much! I know it and I can see it! How do I know about this stuff? Well, this bule guy is my former bos and we're all friends... He's my friend too but the girl is my bestfriend.

Kadang ketika kita punya hubungan dan hubungan tersebut sudah cukup lama terjalin (let say 1 year) banyak hal-hal yang masih harus kita pelajari dari sikap pasangan kita. Kita pikir dengan mengenal "dia" selama satu tahun atau dua atau lima tahun mengartikan kalau kita mengenal "dia" dengan sangat baik. Walaupun mungkin dalam kasus temen gwe ini, gwe belum benar-benar mengerti kenapa sampai si bule punched lengannya temen gwe itu. Nah, tadi waktu jam makan siang, gwe telp temen gwe ini dari kantor just to say hi (plus I don't have a boyfriend for me to call so I called her hehehehehe), dari telp2an itulah dia ceritain ke gwe, tapi berhubung gwe telp dari kantor yah jadinya ngga detail. Intinya temen gwe jadi berubah pikiran tentang hubungannya sama si bule ini. Rencana pernikahan itu menjadi NOTHING for her after the punched. Totally changed her mind. But, she changes her mind a lot too, so I believe she'll be change her mind again to marry him hahahahahahahahaha.

Point yang mau gwe sampaikan adalah buat cowo2 yang mungkin baca email gwe... Sepintar apa pun, sekaya apa pun, seganteng apa pun jangan pernah mukul cewe! Karena seperti apa pun pasangan wanita kalian sekarang ini, dia bisa merubah segala sesuatunya 360 derajat menjadi kebalikannya kalau kalian mulai bertindak dengan fisik (memukul).

Hummm... Sometimes I feel so gLad that I'm single... I don't have to deal with that kind of trouble :) ...banyak banget hal-hal yang bisa disyukuri dari hal-hal yang sering membuat kita bertanya "kenapa?" seperti "kenapa sih sampai sekarang gwe ngga punya pacar??" sekarang gwe tahu jawabannya "so no one will punch you!" huahahahahahahahahahaaha =P

Have a nice day bloggers.

-xoxo-

SinglenesS

Am officially SINGLE for a year now...!
I wish I can have a great long term relationship soon this year...
Feel a bit lonely na...

Two of my very best friends are going to marry their love ones next year.
And me? I haven't found anyone yet!
I feel weird sometimes...

Am I ready for a new relationship?
Am I ready yet???
Or... am I not???

Well, now it's confusing!
I don't know... I can handle all my problems at work... But when it comes to a heart problem, am not sure if I can cope with it. Actually, I can cope with it, but I'm not sure if I can have a 'heart' problem NOW... Hump!

See... I don't exactly know what I want!!!
>>hate my self like this<<

-xoxo-

GRABE...!!!

I finished my work last night at 9.25pm!!!
I woke up this morning at 5.30am!!!
I had a meeting with client at 11am!!!
Before the meeting, I had to finished my RQ Report, so I can present it to them...!!!
Now, I still have to do my RQ Report for another Project and present it tomorrow!!!

I NEED SOME FREAKIN' REST...!!!

1st day of bLogspoT

it's raining outside my office building... it's romantic, though i can't feel the romance at all :D
humm... nothing really special today, except translate pages of pages of pages of the Motherhood Project for tomorrow's field briefing!!!
Huhuhuhuhuhu... Well, it's all for the MONEY man $$$ hohohohoho :D

>happy lunch<

-xoxo-