I don't understand you, Susanne Rolfe!!!

Humm...

Okay, hari ini kesekian kalinya Direktur gwe menganggap bahwa gwe ngga pernah ada.

I don't know what's wrong with her.

She never asked for my help.

I am more Senior than Harry and Ratu, but she never thinks that I exist!

What exactly her problem with me???

Why is she treating me like this???

What did I do wrong???

Should I just find another job and stop being neglected like this or what...???

What should I do???

I really don't understand her!!!

Someday, it has a happy ending

Oo My God! It's at the beginning of 2011 and I'm SINGLE, again! Ahahahahaahahahahahahaa. But thats okay ^^ I feel relief. Se-LEGA LEGA-nya! :D

Well, kisah setahun lebih dengan Heru berakhir sudah. Sedih dan kecewa masih berasa, secara baru 2 mingguan yang benar-benar pisah dari dia ^^ tapi gwe ngga pernah menyesal, karena gwe udah perang dan mengusahakan yang terbaik buat hubungan kita. Apapun yang sudah terjadi, gwe simpan buat kenangan gwe dan pembelajaran (lagi) buat gwe :) --I don't hate Heru, I'm just disappointed-- "well, it's been a great adventure with you ay".

Ehm ehm ehm,,,
I know it's too soon, but I do need a rebound guy ^^
Hahahahahahahahahaahahahaha! You know, to heal is to find a new guy :D (what a theory huh?) --Ada siyhhh beberapa nama yang lumayan intense, tapi ngga tahu kenapa, kalau mereka udah mulai makin deket jadi gwe yg menjauh hihihihihi, mungkin emang gwe juga yang belum siap deket lagi sama orang lain, dan di sisi lain.. gwe juga lagi heboh-hebohnya jalan sama temen-temen gwe lagi--AMPE BANGKRUT ANE! Wahahahahahahahahaaha!
Well, it's close to valentine's day and I feel love is all around me ^^

Never regret anything that ever happened in life, because life without any obstacles is just boring.

Well, some say...

Jangan pernah biarkan orang lain membuat kita berhenti bermimpi.

Karena hanya kita yang mampu memutuskan apakah mimpi kita menjadi kenyataan atau tidak.

Lepaskan semua kekhawatiranmu, karena hal tersebut hanya membuat kita berhenti untuk percaya bahwa kita mampu.

Hummm...ada apa yah?
Gwe terdengar sangat antusias dan semangat dari kalimat-kalimat di atas hihihihi...
Well, kalimat-kalimat itu gwe baca dari renungan tadi pagi dan gwe post disini, karena mampu membangkitkan sisi positif dari diri gwe yang sedikit mulai tenggelam. Rasa khawatir akan apapun mulai bermunculan dan apapun yang sedang gwe kerjakan menjadi terganggu, dan gwe benci itu!

Itulah hebatnya kata-kata / kalimat positif yah???
Bisa memberikan motivasi ke orang lain, bahkan yang tidak kita kenal sekalipun.

Well, some say... Perkataan adalah doa :)

Heru Gunawan / Bongkeng Sihebat / ay'...

Yes, he defeats the Pakistani guy!
He won and we still together, even getting closer one to another ^^
And am so glad, bcos he's the one who I spent my Christmas eve and New Year's eve with... ^^

I know, he is not the most perfect guy I've ever dreamed or wanted but he surely is the one who always be there for me, no matter what!
That kind of presence and that kind of carrying, are things which I want for relationship, and he shows it just right ^^
He makes me feel matter and loved...and he loves me with the most funny way I've ever felt ^^ ...he is the most strange funny smart loving carrying person I've ever met and I love him, with all the best in me ^^

Life

Life is beautiful...

Full of surprises...

Full of classified fulfilling files that scream to be opened and tell...

I like how Lord planned my life...

I like how He loves me and gives me so many chances to feel what life is, how life is and live it.

the break up

I know and you know that us is just wrong...
What ever we feel to each other is wrong...
Whether it's Love or Comfort or both...
We should blame our selves for feeling it...

You shouldn't say that you like me at the first place, cause everything's fine with your family...
And I wasn't suppose to like you back, cause I know exactly who you are...

This hope with tears has no more hope! There's only tears left and we got no one to blame but our selves...

We shall be friends, it's easier and cooler for us and let those feelings go away through time that will pass us by...

Lets not go deeper, lets stay on the surface and we can still enjoy the beer on our hands and still be a great friends ^^

For the last time,

I Love you, bie.

gRavity

Gravity is working against me

And gravity wants to bring me down

Oh, I'll never know what makes this man

With all the love that his heart can stand

Dream of ways to throw it all away

Gravity wants to bring me down

Oh, twice as much ain't twice as good

Can't sustain like one half could

It's wanting more that's gonna send me to my knees

Gravity, stay the hell away from me

Gravity has taken better men than me

How can that be?

Just keep me where the light is...